Posted by Redd Caesar Dave on December 08, 2000 at 21:11:58:
Liquid that was fucking wrong. I always thought you were one of the cooler people on this board, but now I have my doubts. I'm going to get a tad autobiographical here cause I'm feeling a really vulnerable right now. See, I've fallen in love. Seriously. She's cool, funny and absolutely beautiful - slim, with soft curly hair and the way she laughs, just thinking about it could keep me up all night. Thinking about her smile is like listening to my favourite song over and over. I'm doing that now. That band is 3EB and that song is "Never Let You Go" off the Blue album. And I'm love sick. You know why? I don't think, for a set of extenuating circumstances I'd rather not go into, that it is going to work out. And here I am in the middle of the liquid poet dodge ball circle, getting pelted with hate, unable to defend myself because I'm feeling weak from love sickness. My chest feels like it is going to cave in. Do you know that feeling? For all your poetry, I don't think you do, you "poetic poser". I bet you wear "poser poetry street wear". I'm talking to myself in the dark, not having slept for 27 hours because all I can do is think about is her and I don't feel like Pan anymore... this is no longer my train station. All I am is dying, alone, stranded on some desert internet island full of goons who punch and belittle me.
Redd Dave (no longer Caesar, for my crown means nothing just like Rome which has crumbled lost in her smile)